Let’s Talk Insecurity
From what I could remember, I’ve always had a love-hate relationship with myself.
I got welcoming, loving, life-giving guidance from my family but when I left the house, I got negativity, hatred, confusion and so many other negative ideas about me from the world. I began not to like myself in many ways and that I wasn’t pretty.
It’s taken me 24 years to see myself as just cute.
I tried to see the good attributes internally about myself. I’m funny. I’m thoughtful and caring. I’m hardworking. I’m passionate.
It didn’t really seem to help.
It wasn’t until I began really building my relationship with Jesus that I began to see myself in a different light. I began to see and understand that what the world says is flat out wrong.
Some time ago, I won a free photoshoot with Morgan. I absolutely adore her! She made me feel comfortable and I can just be myself. She’s insanely talented and my photos are amazing! You’ll be seeing more of them.
The photos made me see myself in a different way. How Morgan photographed me, I saw just how perfect my features are just the way they are. My skin looks great. I look powerful. I look strong.
I look beautiful.
In my 26 years of life so far, I KNOW in my heart that I’m beautiful.
Society has got it wrong. Society is all over the place. One minute you need to be passionate, the other you need to skinny. You need to be curvy but not too much. You need multiple degrees. You need to be caring, but don’t trust too much and so on and so on. Society is fickle. The only constant in society is that it’ll change.
God remains the same. He is who He was, is now, and who He’ll always be.
In Jeremiah 1:5, God says knew me and made me in my mother’s womb. It’s a common scripture to hear, but it’s important to imprint on our hearts. He knew us even during Him forming this earth before Adam came into existence. He thought of me. You. Your sister. Your brother.
He knew the love He would give me that no one can take. He specifically gave me a role to further His kingdom.
This journey is just that. A journey. I don’t always have great “I feel beautiful” days, but I have more of those days than “I don’t feel it days”. How God sees me means more to me than what anyone else sees.
He used Morgan’s gift to help me see that. I’m proud to be His daughter.
You’re His son or daughter and you are beautiful. Forget society. They’re wrong.
I love you. You’re worthy.
Asia <3